Eldest.

Fell asleep at 12 and woke up at 3.30... restarted my comp coz something was wrong and got to chat with Allegra, best friend in U.S.
I shared quite a bit about what's going on and why I'm so low lately. But looks like an hour of chatting is just not enough... hahaha. She gotta help out her mum clean the kitchen. She said "that's the thing about being the eldest daughter, u got blamed if things got messy in the house." Hahaha.

Well, quite true, like it or not all you eldest son or daughter out there, we'll get quite some responsibility from our parents, right? Hahaha. some complained about it, some accept it, but like me I feel privileged. Hahaha. I gotta tell u, it’s not easy. I had a bad memory of this when I was younger and the strain in my family was at it’s peak and everybody talked to me giving me the pressure of the eldest son into my brain. It really hurts on the inside not of fear of responsibility but I got to say things I don’t want to say and they tell me things I don’t want to hear. Lol. It’s complicated and it’s a total nightmare, that week back then… so I wont talk another word about it.

Well, you guys out there that has an older bro or sis, please forgive us, eldest sons and daughters for sometimes (some cases, most of the time. Worse cases, all the time) being annoying, grumpy, controlling and seems like don’t really care about u ppl, we love u guys, we don’t want u guys to make the same mistakes we made when we were younger, but we’re not mom and dad so sometimes we didn’t really said it in a nice way. Unless we really screw up in life, don’t worry, you don’t need to carry the burden of the family’s responsibility as much as we do. Trust us. =P

I’m talking like I’m an adult which made me realize I have no idea what I’m really actually am talking about. XD

GOOD MORNING WORLD AND HAVE A NICE DAY AHEAD! I’m sleeping, man… =P