Jamming fun.

Noisy day today. Lol. Woke up early, went to Ruben’s coz he told me to come the other day. Went to Cleo’s together with him and we had our steamboat lunch over there. There was Joalin, Stephen, Jin Long with his gf Man Hong (errr…. I dunno how to spell… lol) and of coz, Cleo and Clive n Cliff. The nine of us eat together at It was fun – and messy. Hehehe… almost had a food fight coz I put in veggys which Clive n Cleo don’t like very much. So Clive was thinking of taking revenge by putting chilli padi to the steamboat so I can’t eat. Lol. And Ruben asked Man Hong to pour drink for him coz it was out of his reach, and Cleo said lucky Jin Long is a nice guy, tell the gf to pour water for Ruben and he doesn’t mind. Other people would’ve just punch Ruben in the face la. Hahaha. And I said that there was no need for physical abuse, got steamboat in front of him, just take the hot water and throw at Ruben’s face can already! XD

Anw, afterwards we jam the whole day til dinner time. Jammed with uncle Randy too. It was very fun. But afterwards, my head aches very bad but I didn’t say only. Lol. Thank God it went away after half an hour or so…

Me, Stephen, Joalin and Cleo went to eat at Bedok and we went to watch Just Follow Law at Princess. Joalin bought the ticket for me and she refuses me to pay back. Thank you Joalin! =)
It was a funny show la. overall not bad. The main morale is: “we can break the law, just at the right time.” There’s more to it but that’s the basic thing. Sigh, anyway…

Been having some thoughts lately…

“Why don’t I open up myself to people? Like, u know… lets say once I found someone I can talk to really well and just shared everything to, and why do I stop all of a sudden? Or maybe, I have a friend that I know I can trust, but I just refuse to open up myself. Heh… I found out that maybe it’s my fear. That’s what makes me reluctant to share.”

“Well, I’ve always told myself that it’s not necessary to share. But the people all around me tells me otherwise! And upon hearing it, another distrust came to me – are they just being curious or do they really want the best for me?”

“Heh… funny how my life has shaped me. No wonder true friends are hard to find nowadays. I’ve always believed that trust is the bond that keeps a friendship going, and I still do. But it has become very… bland… very much… absent.”

“Why is it hard to trust? Am I afraid of being hurt? Being disappointed? Or am I afraid that I can hurt? And I’ll disappoint?”

“I think it has come to a point where whatever people say will not encourage or help me. Because I’ve chosen to shut myself, it has become words and only words.”

“Or maybe I can change? Maybe I can have my child-like faith again? Yet, not being naive but wise. Pure as a dove, sly as a snake.”

"All I knew was that, it was actually my own decision all along... whether to open up or not - but why is it so hard?"

I’m gonna shower and maybe I’ll continue reading Eragon. It’s a nice book. =)

“I wanna talk to you… I wanna be honest… but…”

“… forget it… I’ll keep it…”